Trust

How do we learn to trust people? This is a question I know I have been struggling with. These days it is so hard to trust family, friends, leaders, ect. People are always in fear that if anyone knows what they are truly thinking, they will get judged. Many people hide their true thoughts and feelings away because of fear, fear in our society. Society is so degrading of people just being their-selves and it creates us to be something different. I have started   to try and be myself around everyone, sometimes it is the hardest thing to do at the time, because being yourself also means to you should be honest. No one can ever truly be themselves if they aren't honest with people. But how should we trust people? How do we know what to trust them with and what not to trust them with? A lot of the time we over exaggerate things, and think our friends won't like us if they knew things about ourselves that we find horrible and unbearable. We are scared to tell people of the mistakes we make because it will make us seem like less of a person, at least that is what I think. We shouldn't be afraid to tell people about our mistakes because they shouldn't be judging us. It is something that is so easy to stress about, and it requires a lot of thought.
Romans 12:3 - "Because of the privilege and authority God has given me, I give each of  you this warning: Don't think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of yourselves, measuring yourselves by the faith God has given us."
This means that we are not suppose to place ourselves higher than anyone else and no one else should place us up higher on the scale. We are all equals no matter what are station. Judging people isn't up to us, it's up to God... are only right is to give LOVE out to people. It's hard to do with some people, but it is worth it in the end.
Now trusting is hard and will always be hard, but once you start trusting people than you will have a better relationship with them. We should learn to be more trusting in people, but we should also be careful who we trust. One person we should place all our trust in is God.
Psalm 56:11 - "In God I trust and am not afraid. What can man do to me."
This explains that we should trust God, and not be afraid of man! That is such a powerful verse, and it has helped me see things in a different light. I am finding it easier to be just myself around people, and I am loving it! No more worries about being judged because I don't care anymore.

Love part 1

Love, what does that really mean? That is something that someone should take a lot of time to think about, not just a couple of hours... or a day... or a week ... or even a year, but more like a lifetime. Here is a song by JJ Heller, it keeps reminding me what love should be like. 


"What Love Really Means" 
He cries in the corner where nobody sees 
He's the kid with the story no on would believe 
He prays every night, “Dear God won’t you please 
Could you send someone here who will love me?”

Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day
She’s the woman whose husband has run away
She’ll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner 
Then he would’ve stayed
And she says…

Who will love me for me? 
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means

He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone
He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
“Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home”

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said “I know you’ve murdered and I know you’ve lied
I have watched you suffer all of your life 
And now that you’ll listen, I’ll tell you that I...”

I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love 
The love that you never knew

This song has been such an inspiration in my own life. I know that I struggled a little bit with accepting people for who they really are and loving them was even harder. I used to hate them for things they could do and the things I couldn't do. But now I have accepted the things I can't do or can't change; that has made a huge difference on how I look at people now. I love them for everything they can and can't do, for the things that scare them or the things that trouble them. 

Love means to love people for the good things about them, and love them for the bad things about them also. We should be willing to love them through the hard times as well as through the good times. I have so many opinions on what LOVE means to me but then if I typed it all out I would be here all night. So I will finish this tomorrow. 

A poem

REFLECTION:

When we look into the mirror,
what are we searching for?
We're searching for our reflection,
and we stop there.
We don't bother to search any further,
but God doesn't stop there.
He searches further in us.
He isn't looking for our beauty on the outside,
but he is looking for it on the inside.
He sees us for what truly matters.
He sees what's in our hearts,
and in Gods eyes,
that's where the real beauty lies.

"I'm tired of people telling me how I should live MY life, from now on I am going to live MY life for MYSELF and nobody else." Anonymous
I found this quote to be very helpful to me sometimes. I hope that it will help some of you guys to!

=)

Something to Think About

Why is it that when people are hurting and feel like crying, stop themselves. It is so important to let your feelings out; It always helps to talk with somebody you know. You would be surprised how much they care for! Here is a quote from somebody that truly knew the meaning of life... It is one of my many favorite from the person. "If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're to busy being afraid." you have to let yourself feel them fully before you will ever be able to detach yourself from them. 
There is something to think about... 

Funny Story .... This actually happened!

Can't believe how fast December is flying by! Time to do Mock Diplomas soon :( that is something I am not looking forward to at all. Have you ever had one of those moments when your trying to tell a story but you can't stop laughing because it is so funny? Haha I am going to tell you a story that I think is funny. So a friend of ours showed us this website where your suppose to type a question into a box and then your suppose to type the guys name in another box, and when your typing the guys name in your actually typing in the answer. When she took us to the website I was so freaked out! The person had said they were a murderer and that they knew where we had lived, and that he was watching us...he even knew the color of our socks. Me and my sister were so freaked out that I can't even describe it and we were somewhat screaming in terror. Our friend was also screaming along with us... in fact she started screaming first. She played along so well that she had us so fooled and she let it go on for quite a while. When she finally told us what she was doing we decided to try it on our mom. I went in her room and told her about the website and that it even knew what show she was watching. That got her attention as soon as I said that. She scurried over to my friend and then we started the prank and she looked completely shocked!! We got her more scared then we were....my sister kept this going on for a while before we finally told her. After she left for work she decided to get  us back...now you would think that what she had planned was going to be lame...but it was just the opposite!! Her prank really had us scared! She waited a little while before she started it... about ten minutes. Then it started, BANG BANG BANG, we open our window and we couldn't see anything; it was pitch black out! after we close it it started again BANG BANG BANG. after a couple more times of that my sister called our mom and told her we knew it was her doing that. But of coarse she denied it. and then about 20 minutes later she started banging on the exact window again. We moved to the other room about after a minute of that banging. Then we thought we were good until... they started banging on that window also!!! That just made us freak out so bad that we started imagining that we herd a person walking in the house. We all grabbed something to protect ourselves, my friend and sister grabbed glass. Can you guess what I grabbed? I grabbed a lap top and hid behind the door! We then yelled out to the person ( our mom) and told them we were calling the police and the banging just stopped. My mom waited a good ten minutes before she came home and she put on a straight face and pretended to know nothing another minute later she burst out laughing! She peed her pants laughing!!! We set ourselves up for that one!! We were so embarrassed by the way we were freaking out! Can you imagine something like that happening to you? HAHAHA oh my I every time I think of that night I can't stop laughing. But of course when my mom tells the story, we deny it.

Hmmm...

Sometimes it is so hard to believe how messed up our world really is. Something really has to change! How has out world grown to be so cold and heartless towards people. I want to ask you guys to pray for people you know are hurting or anyone you see that is hurting! It will make a huge difference!!! SO PLEASE PRAY THEM!